Wisdomist Wednesday : Beautiful

I had a pretty interesting conversation with mama LTSL recently – Mr. LTSL and I spent Sunday night at my family’s home, we were on our way back from one of the most beautiful wedding’s I’ve ever been to, instead of hustling back home – we took a load off at Mama & Papa LTSL’s home.

I was exhausted. Mr. LTSL was exhausted – we had an amazing weekend, but our tired eyes and slow moving body told the tale of one phenomenal party, and tons of traveling in a short amount of time. While talking to my mom, she turned to me and she said you look so beautiful.

My mom is always filled with compliments – but I was literally wearing a pair of torn jeans, a little white top, my hair was messy, my eyes tired – no make-up – nothing fancy.

I responded, that I was happy.

And it got me thinking – for my entire life, I’ve been consumed with looking a certain way – acting a certain way – I would be on the constant hunt for acceptance.

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For the first time, in a long time I actually feel beautiful. And this feeling has nothing to do with the numbers on the scale, it has nothing to do with the size of the jeans I was wearing, the length of my legs nor the style of my hair. This feeling has everything to do with how often I am laughing, the glow in my smile and sparkle I see in each day. It is the love that I feel and am able to give. It’s the acceptance of life – for all that it is, good – bad – ugly- exciting and scary. It is everything to do with the people in my life, and the happiness that I feel.

It’s the realization, that the acceptance I was looking for – actually came from myself, no one else.

Chai Tea Walnut Oatmeal Cookies

I’m clearly slowly coming around to fall … I bought new scarves. Thick – woolly – cozy- way too big – scarves.

I’ve restocked my shelves with cinnamon, nutmeg, cardamom, ginger powder &  molasses.  I’ve began roasting vegetables instead of grilling them. My morning cup of caffeine hasn’t changed over to Pumpkin Spice …. Yet – but I’m a work in progress.

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And I made cookies!!

Cookies chock full with oats & spices …  and everything nice(s) … I also added grape nuts.

Have you ever had grape nut cereal …. I’m embracing my inner old lady, when I say this – but I freaking LOVE grape nut cereal … and Toucan Sam doesn’t even grace the cover of the box.

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– I’m totally growing up.. yo.

….. or not. And we’re back to you probably wanting to punch me , or just shake me and say hey, grow the hee-haw up!!

I just say hee-haw. Heh. So funny.

I also added tea to these cookies. I’ve baked with teas before .. like in this cake … and these killer muffins … oh, and these muffins too. I like the flavour and depth it adds – it also creates a spice blend that I sometimes can’t match – and it’s so freaking easy to just tear open your favourite tea bag and throw it into your favourite recipe, instead of guess the ingredients and their measurements.

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Chai Tea Walnut Oatmeal Cookies

Ingredients 

1½ cups flour

1 cup rolled oats

¼ cup Grape Nut Cereal

2 Tbsp Dried Chai Tea

1 teaspoon baking soda

2 tablespoons cornstarch

1 Tsp Cinnamon powder

1 Tsp fresh nutmeg

1 cup softened butter

1 1/4 cup brown sugar

¼  cup granulated sugar

1 Tbsp vanilla extract

2 eggs

1 Cup walnut pieces

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Instructions 

Preheat oven to 375ºC. Line 2 baking sheets with parchment paper and set aside.

In a large bowl, mix flour, rolled oats, grape nut cereal, tea, baking soda, cornstarch, cinnamon & nutmeg. Set aside.

In the bowl of an electric mixer, beat together butter and sugars until smooth and creamy.

Add the vanilla and eggs.

Add dry ingredients to wet – mix until well combined.

Add walnuts

Scoop the dough using a medium cookie scoop (or a heaping tablespoon) onto prepared cookie sheets. Bake for 12 minutes.

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If this smell of these cookies, don’t hoax you into falling in love with fall …. Well by golly, you’re tough cookie.

Heh. Get it, cookie .. for a cookie recipe

.. and falling in love with fall, because it is fall!!

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… please come back — I’m not a total dork