Wisdomist Wednesday : Family

I try my best to be as thankful as possible daily … but today, I’m a little bit more thankful.

Thankful for my family.

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Last week, we had a death in the family overseas … my mom flew out literally as soon as she could. But it was too late. Before boarding she knew she was walking into a disaster zone, she was prepared. She was aware.

Literally an hour before she landed, my uncle passed away. I wish I was there with my mom, I know I couldn’t have changed the situation, but just to hold her; and hold her hand for the entire week. I know this hasn’t been easy for her; to be honest, she was sad that her brother passed away, but before leaving home, she had began preparing herself.

It was the details to follow, the situation at hand, circumstances and pain. It truly is sad. Gathered together, was as much family that could make the trip; prayers have been flowing from all over the world; my uncle’s immediate family is well supported and the prayers will continue for a long time.

I’m terribly worried about my grandpa and how he’s coping with this. How do you come to terms with loosing your eldest child? I’m terribly worried about my other uncles, aunts & cousins. There are truly only a couple things we can do, speak of the good times and pray.

I’m SO HAPPY my mom be home tonight. While we live just about an hour apart, knowing she’s back gives me a sense of peace, she’s back in an arena that I can help support her. I can hold her, comfort her, make her laugh.

Hug your loved ones a little tighter today, tell them you love them as much as you can, appreciate the time you have together.

Wisdomist Wednesday : Inhale – Exhale

 

I hope you lovers are having a snazzy week!!

I have good news to share, I’m starting to feel more and more like myself again. Not like this … or this… orr this; I’ll be honest, one day at a time. I still have random moments, when it’s not cool and I want to ignore the world, curl up in a ball and eat cookies like it’s an Olympic sport. But one of two things have happened; I’ve either learned how to deal with how I’m feeling … or I no longer give a shit about how I’m feeling … ironically, I’m okay with either.

I haven’t done anything to help the situation, I haven’t spoken to anyone … nor found a solution.. I’ve just come to a realization; I actually KNOW what’s been bothering me now. It’s not particularly something I want to talk about …sometimes it’s easier to laugh off the bull shit ( sorry for all the cursing today ..).

I’m ready to be all smiley, again. I’m ready to laugh like I used to. The world can either join in or seriously eff off.. I no longer care.  I’ve changed, yes I know it. Yes, it kind of sucks, but life will do that to you.It will shape you, whether it’s good or bad. It is, what it is.

Ironically, for the longest time, my best friend has been trying to teach me this lesson .. that I should stop caring what the world says or thinks and just make myself happy; bluntly say how I feel, act for myself and not for acceptance. It’s not an easy lesson, I’m a sucker for seeing people smile, at whatever cost it may be.

And soooo my lovebugs … today we shall ;

are those supposed to be lungs? lol

xo