Wisdomist Wednesday : Breathe

While I’ve been baking up a storm and trying to post more often, my Wisdomist Wednesdays have kind of fallen by the waste side.

And there’s a reason for it.

And it’s probably not the best reason…

I think sometimes in life we get to a point where we just don’t want to deal. When I say we … I really just meant me.

I don’t want to deal.

I’m tired. ( this is actually true, physically and mentally)

It’s nothing specific but a lot in general.

I don’t have much to say… I don’t want advice or a shoulder to lean on.

I just want to live .. whatever that means.

Some days I wake up, and I can really focus on all of the good in my life – all that I should be thankful for ( and I am thankful – more than I could ever explain). Some days … its not that easy. Some days the fact that I’ve woken up and gotten out of bed is enough for me – that in and of itself has taken all of my energy and commitment.

Some days, I’m able to laugh from my tummy … other days, that smile you see on my face is as painted as the eyeliner I wear. Ironically, I’ve stopped wearing make up .. unless I’m going out. I’ve tried talking this through. I’ve tried all of the options that come to mind. Someone once told me, this is life – the defining moment when you can weigh the good days, with the not so good days … and the good days tip the scale in your favour.

Some days I look in the mirror and I don’t even recognize who I see any more – both in a good and not so good way. I’m proud of the person I have become professionally, I’m proud of my family values, and the high regard that I hold my friends. But there are things that I see, that no one else sees .. things that I’m not proud of .. things that cause me to question everything I see about me.

Life it’s a funny thing … for now, can I just keep baking, working and trying to refocus?


I woke up this morning

I’m healthy

I’m employed

There’s food at home, waiting for me to make a hot meal.

My family is safe.

Let’s just start there. For now, for this moment – that’s good enough for me.

Life … and things .. mostly random things

Howdy doooody my dear interweb friends …

Did you miss me? I missed you! A lot. Too Much.

But I’m here to tell you that

  • I haven’t forgotten you
  • I love your faces
  • I want to do a giveaway soon because this girl has over 500 instagram followers and that boggles my little brain!!

So I took a bit of a blogging hiatus; not on purpose … just a life thing. There was a bunch of other stuff I needed to focus on.

My bestie is married. MARRIED! Yes, no longer my right hand-partner-in-crime … also, this officially means we’re both adults … married, responsible for husbands, paying taxes and all that jazz. Kids of the playground, don’t rush this stuff … it’s not as shiny and sparkly as it seems … it has it’s perks … but don’t get blown away.  But it was a love filled, happiness exploding ball of sunshine … aka it was perfection. And, it’s very possible that I ugly cried more at this wedding, than at my own … she was just so beautiful!!

One more wedding to go at the end of this month, and then officially my group of friends will live happily ever after … until kids come along. OMG one of my girlies had a little boy and he’s as cute as a button and I’ve nicknamed him Joe because 1) It’s no where close to his actual name 2) I’m a jerk. But I love his face, and I’m so proud of his mama and papa .. they’re going to be amazing parental units.

I also haven’t been feeling all that jazzy, and I didn’t want to bring that sort of negativity to the blog. Even though summer is supposed to bring about sunshine, happiness, laughter, and extra ice cream sprinkles … it’s just not jiving with me right now …  I think part of why I love blogging is the honesty associated with it, but seriously mixing butter, sugar and anxiety does not produce cupcakes!

But I’m back.

Back and full of inspiration and tons of fun stuff I want to share. I want to know what you’ve done over the summer – have you traveled? WHAT HAVE YOU EATEN!?! How many ice cream cones can you down in one cottage trip … you know, the essentials of life.

Speaking of essentials, can someone PLEASE tell me how to rid the world of stupid mosquitoes … I have enough bites for someone to mistake me for having the chickenpox – one specifically on my neck that makes me look like i’m a 16 year old with a hickey … SO NOT CLASSY!!

They know me so well!!

They know me so well!!

In the next couple of months, you can expect giveaways … tons more cookies … and recipes that are sure to leave you with a slight sugar high. Also, I feel with us finishing the first week of August, I need to do all the summer things and ease us all into back-to-school and then fall.

Ready to throw up a little, my favourite local grocery store already has  pumpkin spiced cookies out … I gagged … and then proceeded to buy 2 boxes. #SorryNotSorry … and I’m still eating all of the strawberries, peaches and watermelon I can wrap my fingers around.

I think that’s enough random mammer-jammer for a while. Happy Friday you gorgeous people!!