I hope you lovers are having a snazzy week!!
I have good news to share, I’m starting to feel more and more like myself again. Not like this … or this… orr this; I’ll be honest, one day at a time. I still have random moments, when it’s not cool and I want to ignore the world, curl up in a ball and eat cookies like it’s an Olympic sport. But one of two things have happened; I’ve either learned how to deal with how I’m feeling … or I no longer give a shit about how I’m feeling … ironically, I’m okay with either.
I haven’t done anything to help the situation, I haven’t spoken to anyone … nor found a solution.. I’ve just come to a realization; I actually KNOW what’s been bothering me now. It’s not particularly something I want to talk about …sometimes it’s easier to laugh off the bull shit ( sorry for all the cursing today ..).
I’m ready to be all smiley, again. I’m ready to laugh like I used to. The world can either join in or seriously eff off.. I no longer care. I’ve changed, yes I know it. Yes, it kind of sucks, but life will do that to you.It will shape you, whether it’s good or bad. It is, what it is.
Ironically, for the longest time, my best friend has been trying to teach me this lesson .. that I should stop caring what the world says or thinks and just make myself happy; bluntly say how I feel, act for myself and not for acceptance. It’s not an easy lesson, I’m a sucker for seeing people smile, at whatever cost it may be.
And soooo my lovebugs … today we shall ;